Its been two long months since I last updated. Back then, all that was on my mind was "how am I supposed to get out of school now?" and so on, as well as my current struggles with depression.
Life, for me, has just gotten worse.
There really isn't anything much to say, except that, with the exception of the couple flickers of hope and light that appear in everyday life, my exsistance, my being, almost seems completely hopeless. There isn't anything that I really want to do anymore, except to just take that one step foward. I'll continue doing so until my legs are so tired, my body so weak, that all I can do is simply crumble and die.
It hurts, though. I thought that maybe, just maybe, to at least one person I would be needed by, to at least one person I would be simply liked for who I am. Clearly, not all of my friends are true friends in this sense, then. It really hurts, to be forgotten by someone that you held closely, and stood by their side, even though all heaven, hell, and earth waged war against you. Though now its numbed to a simple ache.
In the world, though, there's nothing really to say. What can I say? That I just watched one of my friends being arrested by girls-cosplaying-as-sailor-moon-characters? That I met my crush for the first time in a long time? That I stalked him for a little while? Jeeze, my life is just boring....
