*btw, I'm posting this again, after posting it on another weblog. I like it, is all... Its the first time that I've spoken this bluntly...*
Muahahas... I AM CRAZIFULL AFTER DRINKING RED BULL, 10 LOLLIPOPS, AND HAVING TOO MANY DAYS OF NO/4-HRS OF SLEEP! MUAHAHAHA!!!!!!
*cough cough* Pushing that aside...
There is soo much fcking homework... Its driving me insane... Almost makes me wanna take that offer of cocaine... damn fcking teachers and their homework sadism... Oh well, at least that's better than life now. I have concluded/decided to grit in teh fact that I might be chronically depressed. Ah, sht. Life just fking sucks, cause that would mean that I would have to go to a psychatrist, and if that happens, all anime gets taken away, and all manga gets taken away, and so on, and so forth. Just like that time, when my stupid sob bro decided to tell my parents that my anime and manga happens to be somewhat... er... disturbing. Life REALLY sucks when that happens. It also doesn't help when there are lots of bad things going on, too... That means that either I let my depression get to the point where I might die or do something really bad, or get all that I really like get taken away~~ T-T
Not to mention, don't wanna bother anyone with these probs either... And also that some of my friends see me as dead weight, or some slut that is just there whom they could turn to when there's no one else to talk to. I know that I'm not all that likeable, but to make it that fking obvious is just plain bs.
Damn. Life sucks.
*ahem*... Pushing that aside once more~~~
Life sucks. I guess I said that a lot, nee? I remember reading in one of my friend's xanga entries that his heart is nothing but scrap metal. If that's true, then mine is just a piece of dumb sht... After all, what kind of heart would actually want to kill people? God, I must be really messed up to think that... Though after taking a million quizzes and stuff, I'm beginning to think I was more messed up than I thought I would be... After all... Who else would want nothing but emptiness? I might as well take out all emotion in me while I'm at it!!
damn it all!!!!!!